day 3 in hospital

In someway I'm glad this blog is still alive especially when since I'm stuck in hospital(this is my first time ever being warded) at day 3, I'm 100% healthy (it breaks my heart to see the condition the other patients are in, it gives me a deeper appreciation of my health) but I'm warded for social services assessments for subsidised accommodation in Singapore. it's been hard through this journey moving back to Singapore. It's feels so emotional low of the lowest point while being alone in this journey, but God in His mercy has always provided enough each day with His grace. Living day to day has taught me the cost of taking up your cross daily(Luke 9:23) to follow Him by surrendering All and to cast may cares on Him because He really really cares for you(Psalm 55:2), even the insignificant ones. It's been the longest month so far going through each day not know what the day may hold. I don't wish for anyone to go through what I'm experiencing with so much negativity and all the 'no's from trying, but at least I'm trying rather than not trying, right. I know I'm not in the best position the world thinks i should be in for being here, I moved back to Singapore alone, with no accommodation and with a physical condition, but I do like to tryout stuff(Phil 4:13), have a determined spirit(but i do consider the approach first), and importantly I've got a living God inside me that never fails on His words and promises. It's so so hard to keep my head up in this situation and it feels like others are getting higher(well establish) in their phase of life while I haven't gotten my basics met yet(God knows right). I would write more but the ward has turned off the main lights and the other patients are sound asleep, but the only one sitting and typing this out. The Joy of the Lord is my strength! God is good! :) This song really speaks my heart...